总算结束了~

一个月的考试总算结束了，但不算是很圆满吧...因为总觉得自己这次做得很不好，惨了，我真的很担心我的成绩啊！！（虽然大概一月成绩才会出炉，但由于有了上次的经历，使得我真的无法镇定下来，是真的很怕, 很害怕一切的历史都会重演..)

另一边就是，一年半的学院生活也这样过去了。想起来真的觉得蛮怀念的，虽然在一年半里一直都是考试、考试、考试，但我们都过得蛮快乐。这里的讲师都很好，虽然某些讲师都一直在更换，这一点我们真得很不满意。但无可否认，有些讲师是公认的好。（所以考不好大多数都是我们的问题，不能完全怪完他们...T.T)

今天虽然是最后一天考试，也代表我们已完成了这个课程，日后就不能时常见面了，所以我今天都不是很开心，因为很不舍得。今天意想不到的是，我们这四个时常在一起的朋友，平时回家都很少一起搭车回的，通常都各有各回，但今天竟然会一起搭车回家，觉得蛮意外的。（突然想起以前我们四个都一起走去轻快铁站候车的时候，虽然我们都不在同一个站下车，但就在同一个站上车。所以令到我很怀念下… ）

再回来今天这个考试吧，今天的考试也很难啊...为什么在这一个月的考试里，都没有一个例如“我很有信心考好这一张”之类的好消息从我口中传出来？每一次考完出来都是些不好的消息 ，为什么会这样啊？！我真的很怕，很担心啊…我该怎么办才好啊？我真得很对不起我父母还有教过我的讲师啊！！ 很对不起啊，是我没有尽到力做到最好…


神啊，请保佑保佑我吧~~~我会很感激您的~~


**无论如何，各位认识我的人、大人及小孩、我的父母、各位亲戚、还有我想念已久的朋友们！！我终于回来啦！想死你们啦~~XP**

So Stupid!

Wah~~ today the Chemistry paper 4 is damn hard! Why so hard?! If I still able to think some "rubbish", I think it should better ( at least better than blank it there, right? =.=!!!). But the worst thing is I can't able to think and put something inside, even some rubbish. T_T

Arghh~~~ why I so stupid? WHY?! WHO CAN TELL ME WHY?! I know I'm bad, but got something I must said it out. IF I said it out don't blame me that I'm selfish oh..( although I know I am..=.=)

That is -----> I hope that there is no one able to do it! Especially for those taking the same papers as me! ( I think there is not only me the one will think so, but all of the student hope so..XP)

P/s ---> If the marking scheme for the marks can be lowered down then it will be better for me too!

Yesterday and today

Yesterday was the exam for Chemistry paper 2 and 5. Hmmm~ actually it's quite ok for paper 2 due to I've did some preparations for it ( but in fact is still very scare and worry especially when I heard that my answers were not same as my friends...=.=+)

For paper 5 I suddenly get speechless. Why I said so? That is because it's damn difficult and some more I didn't finished it at all! Yea, paper 5 is actually like to asking us do the planning of the experiments, although it has given 1 and 15 minutes for 2 questions, but I still unable to finished it because of I've wasted a lots of time in thinking what is the questions asking about! =.=!

Since the exam for yesterday over at around 4.45pm, therefore when I reached at home I totally feel sleepy and don't have any mood to continue revisions for following paper at all. But at last I still forcing myself to do some quick revision for the Biology paper 1 (luckily it's just a multiple choices), until around 12.30am, that time I really can't controlled myself and then finally went to the bed.XP Then today I wake up at 7.00am for went to my friend house's for bio tuition ( the tuition start at 9.30am) . Actually I still quite sleepy at that time, so when I waiting for ktm at around 7.30am and even fit into the train, although inside it was very pack but I still very sleepy. =.=!!

However, I actually is quite tired for today even at tuition and during exam. Then I also feel no mood for this whole day, I think it might be cause by lacks of sleeping time. XP But luckily I'm not so blur and still able to think when I'm doing those questions.:)

Hmmm~ for Bio paper 1 actually is quite ok too since I've did some quick revision on last night ( I thought that I'll not able to remember it.. T.T) and also Ms How has discussed with us some past years questions during the tuition before the exam.XP

My next paper will be at next week, so hope that I still have enough time to prepare for it! =)
But the first thing I need to do is gain enough the sleeping time for today, Good Nite.^^

Disappoint-ing

Today was the exam for mathematics Paper 4... Guess how was the standard? It's damn difficult I tell you! T.T Even I asking those from the good classes, they also feel disappointed with the paper. ( Yea la, I'm trying to find some reasons to forgive myself..=.=!!!)
I haven't saw and did such kind of questions from past years, this paper is more complicated and harder than before. Haiz~ even now whether I can get pass for the math subject or not for this time is still a main problem...T.T

Hope that that following paper won't come out so harder like math because my brain is going to burst during these few days!!

Haiz~~even those 3 math papers also can't do well, I actually have no more confident for the following papers... What I'm doing now is pray-ing hard and hope I can do well in the following papers~

P/s --> Actually I'm still haven't give up for the following papers la...but just still feel VERY nervous and scary...XP WoRk hArd!!

Math paper~~

Today math paper 3 is damn complicated... Don't know how to describe my feeling now... Just started to feel disappointed since the paper 1 (math)...

Anyway, paper 4 going to start on this Wednesday, ok, I tell you, it's math again... So I really sad and bad mood in these few days... I know I have exposed my 'black face' to my friends and family since I'm not good in mood during these few days, so sorry for that... I know I should not to do so, but I really can't control myself. T.T

Many of them said that I'm too stress in study...Yea, I think so... That is because I really hope that I can do more well in this exam, and don't want to make anyone disappointed same as last time anymore. I so scare, it's very scare, you know? I really scare that I'll repeat the same things again... Plus, I don't hope to waste my parent's money and my time anymore...

Hope that I can do more better than last time... Pray-ing hard~