不开心了。=（

很多时候我不喜欢投诉来投诉去，
因为我不想那么多事。
也就是像其他人说的什么事都放在心里。
可以的话，我是希望可以大事化小、小事化无；
但一旦我投诉的来，我就会越来越厌恶...
所以为了避免这样的事发生，
很多事情我尽可能可以忍就忍、可以忘记就忘记、可以不说就不说，
免得越来越多误会或不爽发生。

有时我真的很不喜欢你跟我说话的语气，
每当你说了我之后，
我就会当下很没有mood的感觉，
生气吗？不爽吗？无奈吗？无言以对吗？都有...
你每次都说不喜欢看到我愁眉苦脸的样子，喜欢看我时常笑的样子。。
但你懂不懂我不开心的原因？
我不说是因为我怕我会忍不住当你的面前哭起来，
也有些是因为你的关系，我不想说的那么明白令任何一个不开心，
所以我才会不想说。

就像你昨晚突然对我说的那句话，
我当下很错愕，也没想到你会对我说这句话，
顿时什么mood真的没有了，
或许你会觉得我很记仇，
但我偏偏就是很在意这句话，
我几时不体谅你了，我几时闹过你、勉强过你为我做你不想做的事了？
如果是这样那我就再也不要吵你了。。。

你知道吗？




“有时候语言比拳头更伤人”
这句话是真的。

Feel bad in mood.. =(

Yesterday when I having my 1st lecture class in morning..
suddenly my phone rang~ (luckily I put it in silent mode, if not~~)
after that followed by a message~
I'm wonder who will call me at this early morning.
It's him? I think impossible, because he need to work at this period of time.
Family? maybe.. Friends? Who else?
Keep on guessing during the whole class~
After the class over, quickly take out the phone,
saw a message and miss call from him~
What I saw in the message is he get into an accident!
Ha fall down from the motorcycle while going to work!
Then I quickly call him back~
And keep on asking how's with him~ bla bla bla~
I don't even remember what I have been ask..
Just know that luckily he get injured with his right hand and leg..
Overall the most importantly is he's still alright...

After that, just know that all my study mood gone and become very very bad in mood..=(
Feel like to go back and see him immediately if I'm able to do so.
But then I know I can't..
Still remember that it's so difficult for me to stay at uni for whole day long.
Somemore the next day was valentine's day...
All mood gone.. realize that it's not important whether how he celebrate with me during the valentine's day as long as I hope that he's safe all the time..
At night he show me the picture of his injured hand..
Although it's not serious and worst as I think..
But I'm sad and unhappy coz can't with him when the time he need me.
Anyway, thanks god for blessing him and hope that all his bad luck over after this.

Emo Again =(

Finally I have start my Semester 2 in IMU on 16th January..
Sounds so frustration that I suppose start my degree life for 1 and the half year and now only in Semester 2. ==
Well, it's suppose a more challenging life than in Semester 1..
Actually these few days I seriously tired + stress + frustration + ..... anyway it can considered as COMPLICATED minded again!
Tired is due to I have to took few hours on travelling go and back from uni.. since my classes almost everyday start from 8am or 9am like that TIL 5pm!
So you can imagine how is the condition of packing with other peoples inside the train and how does it getting worst especially when the train was delay...... T_T

Well, suppose these few days I'm very very unhappy~
Got lots of thing happened on~
First is I found that I've lost interest on study anymore...
I don't know is me think too much or it's too long time I didn't touch my book or what..
Even myself also don't know how to describe~
I just feel like to work and earn money and it might be a better way for me and even my family..
Plus I totally can't imagine about my future~
I started to understand how's some people feel when they took the course that they're not interested in~
I scared that I unable keep up with progress in learning~
What I think now is even in sem 2 also feel that, then what about the following sem I need to go through??
Sounds irony right?
Okay, no matter how I know that I need to continue~
Maybe I need time to adapt with that and hope so it's just a temporarily minded.

Second is my dear said he might not came to house on today.
He told me 2 days ago. But he said will still find me on wednesday night.
Seriously I got bit disappointed.
Because I still need to wait for few more days only can see him.=(
But I just can act like nothing and said "okay okay, no problem, as long as you okay with that. =)"
Then today when he call me,
and don't really forget what I've said, (just some kidding as I remember)
he got bit unhappy with that and said want to go sleep.
Suppose I don't feel like to end-up the call so fast..
but no matter how I coax him he just said don't want and want to sleep already..
Like that I really don't know what I can said to him anymore.
So I just can said bye bye to him.
Actually from here I got bit unhappy and frustation.
What I can think is just maybe he too tired so he want to sleep!
Normally when he slept in the afternoon he can sleep for 3 hours like that.
but today after 1 hour he woke up and sms me.
I asked him why so fast get awake, and he just said because I bully him, he feel unhappy so he can't sleep.
LOL~ after that don't know it's me think too much again or what.
Feel like his reply just short and nothing to say to me only.
Aiks.. again..
Sometimes I really don't know what I've said and make him feel unhappy.
I really hate of my stupid!!! =(
But luckily normally this won't lasts for few days,
normally the next day like that will be alright.
Although like that, but it also make me think much for whole night.
I really dislike this feeling. =''''''''''''''''(

Grrr... I don't want emo come to me again!
What I can do now??? =(