Well, in fact I've get knew about my result via online on 21th Jan since I've get my friend's call and informed at the early of the morning. Guesses what result I've get? Thanks god, I get all passes in this exam but it did not satisfying. Yup, I'm very unhappy with that. And of course, I've cried and cried for many times for that at night because it did not achieved my "minimum requirement" that I've setting down before exam. Even for me, I had never predicted that I'll get such kind of result! Stupid and silly right?
I did paid a lots concerned and time in study and preparations, and is that the result I should get huh?! Why?! And who else can tell me the answer?! It was real, I didn't say lies! I did work hard! I really did! Hahaha! Is it a kidding that the god giving to me?! Is that funny?! NO, I didn't enjoyed with this kidding at all! I'm serious! I hate! I hate it and even myself too!
Okay, maybe some of them will said that I'm better than them because of I still able to get all passes for this exam, and them getting worst than me.. If like what they've said, then should I feel proud of my result?! o.O Whatever they said, I still can't forgive myself and I'll not satisfied with this result. I'll still repeat for the same things, that is I'VE PAID A LOTS for this exam! It's not fair! Not fair!
Yup, I did told my parents about it. But they didn't said anything. Maybe they knew that I've really did my best and that's why they understand. Some more they still asking me that whether I'm planning to go for re-sit again? No, I'm not going for re-sit again! It really make me crazy and became emotional. Between, I have no more confident for that anymore and even for my further study. I became blur since I don't know what to do and what else I can do at my future. But I'm sure that I'll waste lots of time at "searching" for other degree courses at other Universities for my further study. Besides, can anyone tell and teaches me what to do?
P/s --> Sorry dad and mom, I've make you all disappointed again. And also wasted your lots of money in this 1 and 1/2 years. But I'd never regret for taking this course because I did learned more in this course. I failed to do it well maybe I'm not hardworking enough. So sorry~ Between also feel sorry to my lecturers too~ T-T
Current mood: 
Sad + Speech-less
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