Useless me...

Today is christmas eve..
and yea, suppose to be happy..
yet I'm already try to leave all those unhappy things at side...
yup, seriously don't know why these few days feel kinda stresses!
even I don't understand why those unhappy or unlucky things keep on looking for me?! =/

No matter how those stresses keep on coming near to me,
I just be quiet and moody only,
I will try to tell myself not to cry,
must hold, and all will be alright later...

who knows, my boss today coming back from trip,
once he arrived he direct call and ask me how about these few days during working..
at starting I still act like nothing happened and feel happy when heard he was back,
when he ask me about working, I just keep quiet on the other side..
and yea he told me he roughly know what had happened on me,
because his wife has told him a bit before that when she saw what status that I've posted on FB..
He understand I might not be convenient to talk lots in phone,
so that he said will call me later,
ask me don't feel unhappy...

Who knows, after put down the phone,
my tears come out from eye suddenly
Ishhhh, I cry?
Although it's just a while, but then at least feel better...
feel like finally i found the way to express out all those unhappy things which keep in my heart these few days..
But I still feel I'm useless enough..
why I have to cry??? =(