complicated complicated~

First of all happy Chinese New Year to everybody~~
but hor.. don't know why I'm not in cny mood at all! Ish...
why ah?
just know that these few days keeping on followed my parent went to relative's house "bai nian" only...
boring man...=(

and yea, don't know is me think much or what...
I found that the distance between me and another person getting far and far away..
why ah? I don't know why too..
still remembered one of my buddy yen asked me before, why I can be so good with that friend..
and now even me also found that I'm not as close as with that friend anymore...
can anyone tell me why ah?
I just know that is me always try to find that friend for keeping in touch with each other.. but if I didn't find her, I think she won't find me at all...
Under this condition, I think this relationship can't be stay long lo...
Hmmm.. I don't know how to say too.. maybe it's my problem too??

Between, I starting to try to put down some negative thinking...
Coz I found that when I'm feel that I'm the unlucky one, there might be someone more unlucky than me on the another hand..
If compared with them, I think mine one just a small matter..
plus, I should try to make some changes from mistakes, to make it more better..?