Emo Again =(

Finally I have start my Semester 2 in IMU on 16th January..
Sounds so frustration that I suppose start my degree life for 1 and the half year and now only in Semester 2. ==
Well, it's suppose a more challenging life than in Semester 1..
Actually these few days I seriously tired + stress + frustration + ..... anyway it can considered as COMPLICATED minded again!
Tired is due to I have to took few hours on travelling go and back from uni.. since my classes almost everyday start from 8am or 9am like that TIL 5pm!
So you can imagine how is the condition of packing with other peoples inside the train and how does it getting worst especially when the train was delay...... T_T

Well, suppose these few days I'm very very unhappy~
Got lots of thing happened on~
First is I found that I've lost interest on study anymore...
I don't know is me think too much or it's too long time I didn't touch my book or what..
Even myself also don't know how to describe~
I just feel like to work and earn money and it might be a better way for me and even my family..
Plus I totally can't imagine about my future~
I started to understand how's some people feel when they took the course that they're not interested in~
I scared that I unable keep up with progress in learning~
What I think now is even in sem 2 also feel that, then what about the following sem I need to go through??
Sounds irony right?
Okay, no matter how I know that I need to continue~
Maybe I need time to adapt with that and hope so it's just a temporarily minded.

Second is my dear said he might not came to house on today.
He told me 2 days ago. But he said will still find me on wednesday night.
Seriously I got bit disappointed.
Because I still need to wait for few more days only can see him.=(
But I just can act like nothing and said "okay okay, no problem, as long as you okay with that. =)"
Then today when he call me,
and don't really forget what I've said, (just some kidding as I remember)
he got bit unhappy with that and said want to go sleep.
Suppose I don't feel like to end-up the call so fast..
but no matter how I coax him he just said don't want and want to sleep already..
Like that I really don't know what I can said to him anymore.
So I just can said bye bye to him.
Actually from here I got bit unhappy and frustation.
What I can think is just maybe he too tired so he want to sleep!
Normally when he slept in the afternoon he can sleep for 3 hours like that.
but today after 1 hour he woke up and sms me.
I asked him why so fast get awake, and he just said because I bully him, he feel unhappy so he can't sleep.
LOL~ after that don't know it's me think too much again or what.
Feel like his reply just short and nothing to say to me only.
Aiks.. again..
Sometimes I really don't know what I've said and make him feel unhappy.
I really hate of my stupid!!! =(
But luckily normally this won't lasts for few days,
normally the next day like that will be alright.
Although like that, but it also make me think much for whole night.
I really dislike this feeling. =''''''''''''''''(

Grrr... I don't want emo come to me again!
What I can do now??? =(