Thinking much again...

Don't know why these few days there are lots of changes in my minds..
Hahahah, sometimes really think that I "sendiri cari pasal"..
at the end is "padan muka"..

Alright, lets talk back what I did in these few days..
22th and 23th jan:
worked as crew for feng shui seminar and astrology at KLCC..
from 7am to 6pm..
quite tiring actually, need to wake up at around 5.45am.. ish...
luckily my job not so hard actually,
just need to sat in a room with others colleagues and print those bazi chart.
yea, those chart with customer's date and time of birth.
quite a easy job..
but then when my friends who worked with me (but in different area) heard that I can print out the chart ,
so they keep on ask me to print out the chart with their date and time of birth.
they said want to ask those feng shui consultant lo..

When I'm still in first day, I don't dare to walk around la..
but in the second day, mean the last day of seminar,
plus under with my friend encouragement,
I really ran to consultant area there, show them my bazi chart and ask them about myself.
and of course, lee wei was beside me..
she is the one who keep on ask me go there since she worked as time keeper with consultant..
Not only me, lot of crews and colleagues also ran to that area for asking consultant about their future things.. the most important thing is the consultation was FREE!!!
*of course, only available for us who worked as crews only!

Seriously, I don't ever think that what the consultant said was so true for me.
no matter on my behaviour, personality or anything about me,
it totally.. true!
Not bad not bad..
I can learned lot from this event, and yea if there is any event for this company,
sure I will join again!

24th and 25th jan,
these 2 days kinda unlucky..
I get sicked for these 2 days after the event, ish...
some more this point really same like what the consultant said that day,
he keep on mentioned and asked me better drink more water,
since my immune system not so well..
so this point bingo again! haiz...

and yea these few days, I really feel stressed..
stressed until don't know how to said...
I don't know why there will be lot of things happened on me..
I don't know how to handle it, and how to accept it..
yet don't know how to said it out..
these few days I keep on thinking why I become so unlucky?
Where is my luck? and when it will be back to me?

Between, sorry to my girl..
I'm not going to escape from her..
but just I don't know how to talk to her.. and even face to her...
Will it help if I said it out?
as I know, it won't..
I think just will make her think much more only..
Aiks.. it's okay then..
Since her luck has starting, then just don't want to disturb her..
just let it be..
I know she was trying to help me..
just like that day purposely go sing k with me..
when sing til half way, my tears still coming out without control..
Useless me...
Of course, I think she will thought that I'm hating her or what..
seriously no.. but just... aiks..
I don't know how to said...
For her own good, I think I better disappear for temporary...
to avoid me and her think much more...

Maybe really like what the consultant said,
sometimes too over on helping others at last will bring lots of sadness and trouble to your own.
Yet no one will understand and appreciated for what you've did for them..
Meanwhile, talk too much may hurt other peoples only..
So, since no one can help me..
then I just keep quiet better..
Hope the time will help me to forget it...