Haiz~~~

Haiz~~ I'm so unhappy to be a eldest.
I sensed that I'm always forcing my sister to be hardworking on her study.
Yea, she will having PMR exam on next year, that's why I'm so worry.

I knew that not only me be the one who unhappy and she does too I think.
Especially during this holidays, almost everyday I was always to repeating about study, study and study in front of her.
I may knew that she is feeling so stresses or even hates it.
But what to do?
I knew that if she doesn't try to help herself then nobody may help her, eventhough I'm worried.
It will be useless for her too.
There will be the no one may save her, unless she has think carefully about what to do on the next step and try to work it out.

If there is another choices for me to choose, I rather to be the youngest. =.=!!!
At least not so many things I have to handling, right?

圣诞节之时

话说这年的圣诞节过得比往年不同，怎么说呢？总之就是令到我虚惊一场！！现在想起来，总算有点安慰，呵呵......

在平安夜那一晚，我就发现我家的其中一只猫咪的眼睛有一层看似类像眼膜的东西覆盖着它的右眼。当时想到已经很晚了，而且也不是很严重，就帮它滴了眼药水就去睡觉。我当时还以为只要勤于帮它滴眼药水就会没事。哪知，等我第二天一早醒来，看到它整粒右眼都变成白色！而且还看不到它的瞳孔！吓到我一大早就“鬼叫”起来，把我表弟他们都吵醒了。由于当天是圣诞节，我爸休息没上班，也刚吃完早餐回来，无所事事，于是就拜托他出去帮我看看有哪一间兽医诊所是有照常营业的，好让我立刻带它去看兽医！

就在我爸出门找时，我就心里一直祈祷希望至少有一间兽医诊所有开咯，起码提早就医的复原几率比较高嘛！对不？过了不久，我爸就回来了，幸运的是他找到有一间兽医诊所是照常营业的。然而，事不宜迟，当我准备完早餐给我表弟和妹妹吃时，自己也随便煮来吃，因为深怕那间诊所不等人，呵呵......（有点白痴...）

过后就立刻叫我妈驾车带我去咯，当时心里希望它可以恢复原状！当我抵达时，看到有些主人抱着他们的狗出来时，我就立即抱着我的猫进去。当那兽医看了我的猫后，就问我它几时变成这样啊，或它有没有伤风之类的问题。我就说它已经患上伤风有一段时间了，只是觉得它还会吃会喝就没有什么留意咯...(不好意思下...) 然而那兽医告诉我，它们的伤风的问题是不容忽视的，因若不提早治疗，会使到它们的病菌感染身体其它部位，例如到眼睛影响视力，又或者口腔生痘痘影响食欲。到最后当我问到它的眼睛是否有得医时，那兽医竟然告诉由于已扩散到整粒眼睛，所以没得医！！我当场就傻掉，同时也很心痛，想不到它就这样瞎了一只眼...它还是一个女生呢，以后怎样出来见人噢？那兽医就开了些维他命、伤风药和一支眼药水给它。兽医说，基本上那眼药水只能避免让它眼睛的病菌继续扩散但其实对它眼睛就是没有什么作用了。

就这样，我们就回家喂药给它吃咯。（听到兽医这么说，所以在我上车时还忍不住对着它哭，现在想起来真得有点丢脸...=.=+）同时为了避免那病菌传染到它的左眼，我每隔四小时就替它滴眼药水。我还为此一整夜失眠哩，深怕第二天看到它另一只眼睛也瞎掉！幸好的是，到我第二天看到它的时候，它的右眼竟然有好转，恢复成当初的一层薄膜而已.......到第三天，它的眼睛竟然好了哩！两粒眼睛都一样恢复成以前的颜色，同时它的伤风也好了啦！看到它恢复以前蹦蹦跳跳的样子，心里感到有点安慰哦！呵呵~~~~~ 我真的被吓了一大跳。=.=!!!（这对我来说真是一个难忘的的圣诞节）...无论如何，还是要给大家来一句迟来的祝福语,

“圣诞节快乐！”



心情：（感到安慰…XP）

Yeah~~my mom is back~~

Yeah yeah, finally my mom is back!! Although she has not around us for just 3 days but that were so long and long times ago for all of us and missed her very much!!!

When I received a call from her and said that she has arrived KL safely, I'm so excited and happy! (Not only me but all of us! XP) Especially my cousin, seen that he was more excited than me!

Then my dad brought 3 of us to fetch my mom quickly and having our dinner at Petaling Street there! Huhu~~~ Remember that we're so happy that my mom was came back safely finally and may meet her too!! Although she is always scolding me or even compare me with others, honestly I'm quite unhappy and some more very hate that! But don't care la, as long as she is came back safely and all our family members can be together! ^^ I understand and knew that what she has done all are for our own good. XP

2nd day to be a "maid"

Yea, today was the 2nd day for me to be a maid at home without mom. How was the feel? Let me to tell you, It's so so so Boring!! I'm start to wondering how my mom to stay at home for everyday like me now in these few years.

I almost become crazy when I'm at home, especially when facing to my cousin. Yea, his mom has went to Ireland for work for almost 2 weeks. Do you know how was his attitude? In fact was not a main problem but I extremely hate this!

He was totally treat me and my sister as his "maid"! Espeacially after meal, he just put his plate in the basin and then just leaves it over there. Means that I'm not only have to prepare breakfast and dinner for them and also have to help him to washes his dishes! Is that a heavy work for him huh?! Besides that, he was not care for his own work but care on other's business. Just like today, I have never asked him to bath my cats and he do so, but he just bath on one cat only and don't care on others! See, that's why I'm be mad at him!! Even give a help in other's business but just did half only and not ALL! Then how about the another half works remained? Of course I have to complete it! =.=!!!

Didn't care on his own things but care on others things plus give me more extra works! I have never saw a boy who so "kepoh"(who said it in Hokkien) and “鸡婆”like we've learned in mandarin as him! He was extremely like an "auntie" you know?! (Congrats to him since he has fulfilled all the requirements to become an "auntie"! =.=!!!) Arghhh~ so angry now!! Hope that my mom come back faster otherwise I'll become crazy!!!

A trip for My Mom

Well, my mom just went to Penang with her friend for a trip since her friend has to go back to Penang today. Therefore my mom just followed.

So, I have to handle all homeworks at home in these few days for instead of my mom. This make me can't able to go out within these 3 days. =.=!!! Although she was not around for just 3 days, but we will miss her very much!!!

Luckily she will come back to KL on this Saturday but not Sunday. Anyway, hope that she may enjoy the trip to Penang with her friend!! =)

P/s ---> My mom has promised me that she will buy me a new watch once she come back from the trip... It act as my salary for helping her to "take care" of the house for these few days ... Hooray~~~

Funny pictures~~

Hey, I have captured some funny pictures from my cat at the living room.

Here are the first picture, guess what is it looking for...

Q: Do you know what is it looking for???

1,

2,

3,

TADAAA~~~ Ans: It is watching DVD!! Hahahahahaha~~~~~

It was real and I didn't say lies, it really watching a movie which is playing from a DVD player with DVD!!!!!!!

Sounds like I'm a stupid... is super stupid! Hahahahaha... Yea, and I think so... XP

Since I feel so moody when I've wake up today and saw one message from my friend. She's asking me whether free to covering her from work on 26th, 27th and 28th of December or not because she'll has birthday celebration on these 3 days.( Her birthday on 24th of December)

WHat? Even she has "so many" birthday celebrations and she can't able to get back early for work huh? Then I just replied her that I've to go out to meet up my old friends. Then I wondered she has misunderstood for what I've said, she thought me not allowed her to having her celebration and she said each year only got one day was her birthday, and I have plenty of time to meet up my friend during holidays, why can't meet them later?

I'm started to feel angry for what she has said as I've mentioned just now I'm moody once I get up today. >.< (Sorry, normally nope but just today..=.=!!!) I said although I have plenty of time during holidays but it doesn't mean that they're same as me, because normally is difficult to ask them out since some of them have busy on either study or working. Of course I almost wanted to start quarrel with her in sms just now. Huhu~~ Luckily I still able to control myself. During that time I think she has sensed that I'm angry from what I've replied her in sms. She appologize to me and ask me not to angry, she said that she'll try to arrange her time for birthday celebrations and will discusses with me later. Aiks... What to do, then I just told her that I'll try to arrange my time too for covering her to works lo.

She is like this one, always think about herself and doesn't think about others. Just like what we've said in mandarin, "习惯就好"。Haiz...... =.=!!!

I knew what to do...

I felt so dissapointed for what you've told me the truth just now.

Yea, thanks for telling me the truth.

Never mind, it's a small matters actually.

Although it's a small matters but please tell me how were you that time or just tell me why you didn't give me a replied that time when the time you think that you're free.

It doesn't matter, as long as you replied me that you're good in life.

But unfortunately, you didn't.

Just told me that you've read it but didn't give me a reply.

And you only told me that when I'm asking you for second time just now.

Do you know that I'm always waiting for your reply since I've sent you the message.

I know I'm silly and stupid, I should not find you and even sms you that time.

The aim for me to sms you is because of I'm treating you as my good friend and trying to keep in touch between our relationship.

Of course, that's also a caring from me to passes to my friend.

And also hope to know how's your life recently.

I've never forget our study life at college, what we've did together and also the encouragement that you've gave me during college life.

Well, seen you've forget it.

And I've nothing to said with it.

Thanks for your treating and finally I knew what's to do.

Enjoy your holidays and your future life then.

I'll not doing the same thing on you.

Take care~~~

Honestly, I'm not angry with her because it's really a small matter but I just felt sad and disappointed. So simple, I just hope to keep in touches with her but obviously she has forget I'm one of her friend. Even I received a sms from her, it's enough for me. But in fact even I'm the person who sms her and she didn't gave me any reply. That time, I thought her phone can't received the message but in fact she get it, but just didn't gave me the reply. Well, it's okay. (Because you've taught me something...) What I want to said to her is thanks for being my friend and ready to sharing my happiness and sadness during college life. She's my friend forever but I'll just keep it in heart and will not doing the same thing on her (these shown for we will less sms and chatting or no more contact) since she's more busier than me.

P/s ---> To one of my good friend during college life. ( Don't misunderstood the person that I've mentioned above, she's a girl.)

Random Post~ XP

Since I can't get the enough sleeping time in these few days, so I'm started to feel not so well. Aiks, it's Headache!!!

But I can't to sleep now because I'm still waiting for mom home. She has went out for met up her long-lost friend! Yea, I felt that she's happy today! I heard that her friend will be here until this Wednesday and go back to Penang on Thursday. Ermm... And maybe my mom will follow her back to Penang and have a trip over there for 3 days and come back to KL alone on next Sunday I think.( Wao, she is so brave!!) Anyway, hope that she has a "nice week" and unforgetable dates with her friend! ( Since she will meet up her friend for almost one week) =)

Wait, I've heard some sound which passes from the door. Seen my mom is back!! SO, good night everybody. Oops, sorry, it's should be Good Morning everybody. XP

P/s ---> Sorry friends, I think I may not able to go out with you all within this week since I have to stay and "take care" of my house for one week! T.T

Date~~~

Since the Christmas day is around the corner, and following months will be the new year, yea, it's year 2009 coming soon! *excited*

Well, these few days I'm just busying to sms and call out all my friends for going out to yamcha or shopping! Yea, since I've heard that some of their traning and exam will be over and they will be free later!!! Huhu~~~

Yes, I can't wait the days that have date with them. Hope that the date is coming now!!!^^

***Nothing to say here, because I'm so excited and having fully of hope for the date!! *hehe* XP

When I can Get my Result?!!!

These few days I'm always thinking and worrying for my result, until can't able to sleep. Especially at the midnight, I felt so tired but can't sleep at all due to I'm start to thinking about my result which may related to my future! *struggling*

I hope to get my result right now, no matter is good or bad, I just want to get it NOW! Maybe I will not able to accept it once I get my result but at least I can make a plan for my own future immediately or asking for opinion from other friends or seniors or maybe lecturers too (Whatever la~as long as the person can help me or give me any useful message~) and NOT just waiting at home only! At least tell me or let me know what's to do! Because it's so suffer for me when unable to do anything!! T-T

P/s --> I almost being crazy when I'm thinking about my result and without doing anything!!!

The Bolt

Yesterday, I have a date with my "shi fu" - Huey. Actually before that, we plan to Petaling Street and then went to Jusco for a movie. But at last we change our decision and just went to Jusco Metro Prima for some reasons. =.=!!!

Well, I arrived there at 11.45am, and Huey arrived there after few minutes. Then, we went to KFC for breakfast. Just Huey having her breakfast over there and me just ordered a drink due to I have ate my breakfast before that. So, I just sat there with my drink and chat with her.

After that, we went to cinema there for buying our tickets for a latest movie and named " The Bolt". Since we still have time before the movie, then we just walked around the Jusco. (It was not my First time to get into Jusco there, even I closed my eye also can walk around there. =.=!!!) Besides that, both of us also went to playground there to have some fun to 'waste our time' from waiting.

Finally, we can get into cinema there. Inside there was so dark, and I can't even saw the places. So difficultly, we found our places and sat down. =.=+

Yea, here is the movie's display Picture, " The Bolt":-

The story is described about a super-dog Bolt, every day is filled with adventure, danger and intrigue-at least until the cameras stop rolling. But it never knew that it's real identity was just a dog artist and also a normal dog without any super power. When the star of a hit TV show is accidentally shipped from it's Hollywood soundstage to New York City, it begins it's biggest adventure yet-a cross-country journey through the real world to get back to his owner and co-star, Penny. Armed only with the delusions that all it's amazing feats and powers are real, and the help of two unlikely traveling companions-a jaded, abandoned housecat named Mittens and a TV-obsessed and also the Bolt's fans the hamster named Rhino. And finally, Bolt discovers it doesn't need superpowers to be a hero.

I love the story of this movie very much, not only the interesting adventure happened on the doggy, the BOlt but also it's 2 different characteristics of partners, Mittens and Rhino and how they become good friends among them eventually. Besides that, the relationship between the owner, Penny and the bolt was touching too because it can't able to be replaced and destroyed easily.

Anyway, it was a nice movie. Hope that the Walt Disney may present us more suprises later! =)

Bored Life~~ =.=!!!

Yea, it's me again...... Don't know why I can't sleep now even I feel tired. Haiz~~ it's already the second weeks after the exam for me to stay at home without doing anything which related with study. It's so so so and extremely bored, you know?!

I'm now exactly like a suck who is waiting for the time passing, seconds by seconds and also days by days without doing any meaningful. Everyday just sleep until the 10a.m something or even 11a.m, after that waiting for breakfast then watch TV program and so on. After that just stay at home for whole day and help to do some homework. Yea, only until 6pm then went out to clinic for work.

For my friends, some of them busy for exam, some busy on working and some busy for study too, no one free to accompany me. Before that I have no time to date with them since I have to busy for my study and preparing for exam. But now, even I have more and more of time for them but they do not have time for me! T.T

During the time when study, when I heard that we're giving holidays, it's very happy for me but now only knew that life without study and exam is so so bored!! Anyway, I want to continue my study life!!!

P/s ---> Seen almost everyday I may make some posts to the blog, this shown that I'm really free at home!!! =.=+

药物敏感

自从我在诊所上班后，很多时候遇到的事都很突然，完全做不到任何心理准备。（虽然身为医生的人并不是我，但突然看到这些突发事件是难免会有点吓到，担心会有什么意外发生。）

继上次的断指事件后，昨天又有一宗关于吃药敏感的事件发生。话说昨天当我六点到达诊所后，在六点半时突然有一个女儿带着她那位不停气喘的母亲来到我们的诊所。当时我们还以为她是气喘病发作，但见到事态那么严重，总不会一直问明原因、查明真相才给她进去见医生吧？( 这样好像很欠打那样...=.=!!!）然而我就直接开门给她进去见医生，当医生问她发生什么事情时，当时她是完全说不出话，只是一直喘气及咳嗽，流鼻涕、眼睛也很肿、看起来很辛苦。然而医生就问她女儿，她女儿说她吃了上次医生给她的药就这样了。

这样看来很明显是她对药物敏感而没有对医生说，然而医生就赶紧为她打了一支舒缓敏感的针后，就给她吸氧气。见她的喘气开始舒缓时，医生又赶紧为她打多一支同样的针。接着医生就用听筒听她肺部呼吸的声音，经过半个小时的急救后，她总算好了一点、可以说话了。她就告诉医生说其实在上个月拿了我们医生开给她的药，吃了后就已经有了敏感的现象，眼睛肿及流鼻涕之类的，当时她想立刻回来跟医生说，但她丈夫却说不用，不要吃就可以了。哪知昨天她有点不舒服，吃了两粒上次的退烧药后就立刻变成这样。那时她女儿在她去我们诊所附近的诊所给那里的医生抢救，奈何那医生竟说那里给的药就得回去给那里诊所的医生看，恐怕是那医生怕她有什么事发生要负责吧...

听了之后，我们的医生就告诉她，上次其实她吃了药发现敏感时就应该第一时间回来告诉我们，好让医生立刻替她换药及写下她对什么药物敏感等。还有那位医生在遇到这种情况时，在了解情况后应该第一时间为她抢救，而不是这样耽搁急救时间。如果有一位病人上次看病的地方是在很远的地方，而那位病人被紧急送去附近的诊所急救，但附近诊所的医生又不给予急救的话，那这位病人岂不是更加有生命危险？？

呼~~ 在这件事件里我真得为她捏了一把冷汗，那时我多怕抢救不成功（呸，呸，呸...=.=+），幸好那位大婶终究没有生命危险，所以说药物敏感这些事是不能忽视的，这又增添了我对这份工的了解。^^

Getting confuse...

Today, I went to a Paediatric Specialist Clinic for an interview. Yea, means that the clinic is specialist for babies and children only. This work was introduce by my friend.

The working condition for that clinic is very good, may always faces to those babies and children. =) ( Yea, I like it!!!) And the design of the clinic inside is quite interesting too, it's looks like a playground! Hahaha... I thought I have get into a wrong place when I went into the clinic. Even a receptionist counter also looks funny. =.=!!!

During the interview, seen I can start working anytime because I have learned a lot of things from the clinic that I'm still working now. The salary still able to discuss once I agree to start working and the training is given. But the doctor ask me to work with him at least 1 year as full-time if I agree to start working as part-time in this month. Yea, that's a few problems for me now, how do I talk to my doctor that I'm now still working with and tell him that I going to stop on this week? ( Although I know that I'll not be kill but I don't dare to resign at last minute.) And what should I do after my result released? If my result is good then I able to wait for further study after next year, that's not a problem for me. But if my result is sucks, then what should I do? Although I want to re-sit also have to wait for after 1 year? Yea, it's the main problem that confusing me. =.=!!!

Haiz...... What should I do now?! T.T

P/s ---> In fact I'm quite interest in this work since I can always faces to those babies and children and may learn more how to take care of them too. I can't able to confirm with the doctor whether I may work over there for at least 1 year or not since I still have to refer on my result which will release later, and what reply that the doctor asking for is my double confirm, therefore I get confusing...

是我管太多了吗？

到底，是我管太多了吗？
我真得那么蛮不讲理吗？
我真得那么不理解她妈？
我真的讲太多了吗？

或许，我真的想太多了，
太不信任她了，
太害怕看到她步我后尘，会后悔以前所作的一切，
所以我就一直提醒她，
想办法纠镇她。
可能，是我真的太紧张，
很多时候都会冲动了，
语气是会无意间重了，续而令到她误解我的意思，
以致到最后她觉得我是自以为是，觉得我自己是对的，而她是错的。

很抱歉，我不是要告诉她她就是错的，而我是对的，
我真的不是要告诉她这些，
我也不是要在她面前显示出我有多么伟大，
我觉得帮助、维护她是我的责任！
就只因为她是我的家人！！！
因为我真的太担心，
太担心我最害怕看到的会出现在我们眼前，
我真的不想让这些事发生在她身上。
因为我怕她会解决不来、会后悔！
就是因为我有太多的后悔，
所以我才希望她不要有任何遗憾。

我真的不是不要信任她，
而我真的放不下心来。
当她说出一句：“我哪敢怪你？”这句话时，
知道当时我有多心痛、多难过吗？
那时我真的体会到以前妈妈在被我顶撞时的心情，
那种心情真的很伤、很伤......
原来我在她心中是那么的不可理喻......

无论如何，我希望她会好好的过每一天，
不要对她的过去有任何遗憾，
也不要对她现在的所作所为后悔！
重要的是未来，不再是以前，
因为以前已成过去，已无法改变，
所以好好把握将来。
我知道她已经有自己的思想，
不再是以前那个只会一味听及点头的小妹。

最后，
我对于以前对她的冲动感到很抱歉！！

Anyone who can save me out?! o.O

Anyone who can save me out?

Haiyo~~I really too free la...... Besides eat, sleep, online and watch tv program, I don't know what else I can do at home!
I rather go study or working than at home! It's really too free la, and I dislike it!

Now I'm starting to miss my college's life, miss all my lecturers, dear coursemates and my HOMEWORKS too!! Busy for something at least better than nothing to do at home, right?

Anyway, I don't want to stay at home without anything to do!!! I must do something!! Argh~~~~~~ so stupid!!!

很无聊啊~~

自从考完试后，也暂时一切都告一段落。从之前每天都烦考试，烦这样、 烦那样的人，突然变得得空起来，真得很无聊啊......（尤其是我现在是生是死都不知道的人...唉...怎么办啊？）

就因为如此，搞到我想也不是，不要去想也不是，真的是生不如死啊...之前的学院生活，还说还有一些东西忙，但现在反而清闲到无所事事，唯一的精神寄托——功课都没有的忙了，那我还可以做些什么啊？


找工又还没找到，朋友有些就忙着做工、拍拖、读书及考试，都没时间理我，反而我是最空闲的一个...反观出街，我又没那么多钱去逛街，真得很矛盾啊！！！

以前有的读就嫌烦，没有得读就闷到发慌；要去申请大学又不懂自己的成绩怎样，去想，烦、不去想，也是烦。我的未来是怎样到目前还是一个谜。我的头就快爆炸啦！！！


救命啊~到底我该怎么办啊？？？神啊，现在是我第二次求您，你就大发慈悲保佑我一次吧~


***我很想去上课啊！！！我不想继续在家里做废人啊！！！***

First "DaTinG" after the exam...XP

Well, today... sorry, not today anymore, it's yesterday, because the clock has been passed over the 12.00am...XP

Well, yea, it's yesterday, I have a "first dating" with my "long-lost friend", Phui Yen, because we already have a long time didn't meet for each other (but we still in contact with SMS sometimes..XP). Yea, we went to Midvalley for a movie actually, but we're not going together because she got classes until 12pm. So, I went to take train alone at around 11.45am and arrived there at around 12.35pm.

Since I arrived there earlier than her, therefore I went to around cinema selling ticket counter there and planning which movie we're going to watch ( coz both of our mom also hope that we can go back early..T.T) and then discuss with her through sms. At last she reached there at around 1.05pm when I'm queueing up in the line for waiting to buy for ticket. Through our last decisions, the movie that we watch is "MADAGASCAR ESCAPE 2" which at shift 2.30pm.

While we're waiting for time to get into the cinema, we went to Mc Donald and have our lunch. When we finished our lunch, it's the time for us to get into the cinema. Yea, the "MADAGASCAR" not bad though, it's story is quite funny and nice to have a look. =) ( In fact is quite worth for watch this movie...XD)

After the movie end, it's around 4pm. Seen we still have time, then we went for have a walk around there. ( Hey, finally I knew where is "THE GARDEN" stated in!) Actually I want to searching for a new watch around there, but the prices was so expensive, and I have unable to buy it...T.T At last, I didn't buy anything at all and we went to take train and go back at around 5pm.

Yea, I quite enjoy this "dating" with PY, because I have not to went there and met her for a period of time. Hope that she may enjoy it too~

P/s ---> Another thing is quite funny for this dating is, that is our first time to buy for ticket at the cinema selling ticket counter, we choose the sit through computer until we searching for our sits inside the cinema. That is because of normally when we went out with our own friends to cinema, our friends will did it all for us and we just followed only! XP

Pp/s -----> In conclusion, I'm quite proud of all our " first time" of the enjoyrable dating yesterday! Hahaha! XP

总算结束了~

一个月的考试总算结束了，但不算是很圆满吧...因为总觉得自己这次做得很不好，惨了，我真的很担心我的成绩啊！！（虽然大概一月成绩才会出炉，但由于有了上次的经历，使得我真的无法镇定下来，是真的很怕, 很害怕一切的历史都会重演..)

另一边就是，一年半的学院生活也这样过去了。想起来真的觉得蛮怀念的，虽然在一年半里一直都是考试、考试、考试，但我们都过得蛮快乐。这里的讲师都很好，虽然某些讲师都一直在更换，这一点我们真得很不满意。但无可否认，有些讲师是公认的好。（所以考不好大多数都是我们的问题，不能完全怪完他们...T.T)

今天虽然是最后一天考试，也代表我们已完成了这个课程，日后就不能时常见面了，所以我今天都不是很开心，因为很不舍得。今天意想不到的是，我们这四个时常在一起的朋友，平时回家都很少一起搭车回的，通常都各有各回，但今天竟然会一起搭车回家，觉得蛮意外的。（突然想起以前我们四个都一起走去轻快铁站候车的时候，虽然我们都不在同一个站下车，但就在同一个站上车。所以令到我很怀念下… ）

再回来今天这个考试吧，今天的考试也很难啊...为什么在这一个月的考试里，都没有一个例如“我很有信心考好这一张”之类的好消息从我口中传出来？每一次考完出来都是些不好的消息 ，为什么会这样啊？！我真的很怕，很担心啊…我该怎么办才好啊？我真得很对不起我父母还有教过我的讲师啊！！ 很对不起啊，是我没有尽到力做到最好…


神啊，请保佑保佑我吧~~~我会很感激您的~~


**无论如何，各位认识我的人、大人及小孩、我的父母、各位亲戚、还有我想念已久的朋友们！！我终于回来啦！想死你们啦~~XP**

So Stupid!

Wah~~ today the Chemistry paper 4 is damn hard! Why so hard?! If I still able to think some "rubbish", I think it should better ( at least better than blank it there, right? =.=!!!). But the worst thing is I can't able to think and put something inside, even some rubbish. T_T

Arghh~~~ why I so stupid? WHY?! WHO CAN TELL ME WHY?! I know I'm bad, but got something I must said it out. IF I said it out don't blame me that I'm selfish oh..( although I know I am..=.=)

That is -----> I hope that there is no one able to do it! Especially for those taking the same papers as me! ( I think there is not only me the one will think so, but all of the student hope so..XP)

P/s ---> If the marking scheme for the marks can be lowered down then it will be better for me too!

Just talking Nonsense..XP

Since I've sat for the exam for almost one month, and the exam also going to over soon. But it's still very scary and terrible for me. I scare to sat down and look for the exam papers, although I'm nervous but still haven't until blur and don't know what to do. But don't know why I always think that I'm still haven't fully prepared yet.

Besides that, I'm also scare that the day which the results are released. Wow, I totally can't and don't dare to imagine it!

Suddenly feel that I'm the miss the day when I having classes with my friends and lecturers! I really miss them! >.<> I think I have some mental problem since I have sat for the exam for whole month or maybe feel too stresses too. Because don't know why I suddenly feel that I want to re-sit for the SPM since my cousin came to my house last few days and she seen like so hardworking to prepare for the SPM exam! ( There is a big difference when I sat for the SPM last time..haven't did the full prepared plus feeling very relax during that time some more..>.<) So, the reason for me to re-take SPM is because of I want do some changes in my history before! Eh eh, maybe I can get at least 5A's I think! Hahahahaha ----- I think I've really get crazy...T.T

Pp/s --> I'm just talking nonsenses only.. Until now I only know that how stupid am I...T.T

Yesterday and today

Yesterday was the exam for Chemistry paper 2 and 5. Hmmm~ actually it's quite ok for paper 2 due to I've did some preparations for it ( but in fact is still very scare and worry especially when I heard that my answers were not same as my friends...=.=+)

For paper 5 I suddenly get speechless. Why I said so? That is because it's damn difficult and some more I didn't finished it at all! Yea, paper 5 is actually like to asking us do the planning of the experiments, although it has given 1 and 15 minutes for 2 questions, but I still unable to finished it because of I've wasted a lots of time in thinking what is the questions asking about! =.=!

Since the exam for yesterday over at around 4.45pm, therefore when I reached at home I totally feel sleepy and don't have any mood to continue revisions for following paper at all. But at last I still forcing myself to do some quick revision for the Biology paper 1 (luckily it's just a multiple choices), until around 12.30am, that time I really can't controlled myself and then finally went to the bed.XP Then today I wake up at 7.00am for went to my friend house's for bio tuition ( the tuition start at 9.30am) . Actually I still quite sleepy at that time, so when I waiting for ktm at around 7.30am and even fit into the train, although inside it was very pack but I still very sleepy. =.=!!

However, I actually is quite tired for today even at tuition and during exam. Then I also feel no mood for this whole day, I think it might be cause by lacks of sleeping time. XP But luckily I'm not so blur and still able to think when I'm doing those questions.:)

Hmmm~ for Bio paper 1 actually is quite ok too since I've did some quick revision on last night ( I thought that I'll not able to remember it.. T.T) and also Ms How has discussed with us some past years questions during the tuition before the exam.XP

My next paper will be at next week, so hope that I still have enough time to prepare for it! =)
But the first thing I need to do is gain enough the sleeping time for today, Good Nite.^^

人，是不是真的会随着时间而改变？

今天，本来我妈约了我阿姨（她的堂妹）一起出去用餐，因为她的生日快到了，况且她也快要出国工作了（听说是要去两年，搞到她的儿子必须留在我们家两年，T.T!!!），所以打算帮她庆祝下。

怎知道，当我妈在五点多打去问她会在几点到时，她竟然又放我们飞机！她，已经不是第一次了。在很多时候，答应了我们的事，都会在最后一分钟爽约。有时更甚的是，还要我妈亲自打去问她大概什么时候会到时才来爽约！我顿时真的感到很反感，为什么我这个从小到大最敬爱的阿姨会变成这样，那么没责任感，那么口是心非？如果我们没打去问她在什么时候会到的话，那我们岂不是要傻傻地白等一场？又或者，如果我妈不是提早打去问她，就直接到餐厅等她的话，而她又没打电话来说她不来，那我们岂不就饿着肚子白等？

我妈从小就跟她一起长大，我妈时常都笑说她们之间的感情也可以说是比自己的亲姐妹还深，皆因我妈不是跟自己的姐妹一起长大的，而是跟她的婆婆和爸爸（我阿姨称他为伯伯）那里长大的，也可以说是我妈也是跟她堂兄弟姐妹一起长大的。而众堂兄弟姐妹，就数这个阿姨与我妈最合得来。虽然到我妈长大时也有跟回我外婆及自己的姐妹生活，但就不及这位阿姨好。就因为这样，在我小时候，我就只熟悉这位阿姨，因为我妈有时也放心留我在她家过夜。虽然她那时已结婚，但由于那时她还没有小孩，所以她可以说是很疼我，我每次从她家回来都会有“满载而归”。她对我的好我是永远不会忘记的，但为什么她要一次又一次的欺骗我们？说真的，我的感到很失望。我妈教过我不要太介怀，但她一次又一次的说谎，不但是我，连我妈也感到很失望。我们真得不知道她在什么时候在说谎，什么时候时说真话。

总之如果她再那样下去，我们真得不懂得要怎样去帮助她......

What Should I do now?!

Since the few papers that I've take in last few days, I really feel no more mood and confidents for following papers. That's because of those papers are damn difficult than last time..T.T

Mathematics subject has gone, all papers 1, 3, 4, and 6, I can said that there's no one papers that I have did well in math. T.T And the Chem. prac and Bio. prac papers, I really almost want to die, because I don't even have enough time to finished it and some more differentiate wrong the specimen diagram that has given in Bio.prac papers too! ( So as a reminder, better don't believe 100% in the tips given! =.=!!! ) ! As most of my friends and lecturers said that practical papers are not so important, coz it's marks for overall of whole subject are not much, so better do well in others papers to gain more marks to balance the marks that we have lost in practical papers...T.T ( As I know that even the practical also can't able to do well, then how I get the confident for following papers leh... and some more those question papers are so difficult and harder than last time, so the probabilities of my confident for the following papers is almost NEGATIVE! =.=lll )

Since it's my last chance, so I'm very worry about that.. worry about my result sucks and make me can't able to continue with degree course later.. Some more, if I really can't do well in the exam, am I really have to stop from studying? Or just simply take some degree courses that I'm not so interest in? Or just give up and tell myself that " not your fault, it's because of you're not suitable in A-level course only.. maybe you still can do well in other course.."? Or I really have to resit for one more semester again?

I really don't know what I'm talking about and even thinking! I'm so confusing now! I don't want just listen those excuses such as I'm not suit in this course or just give up like that! I can't able to believe that I can't do that since I've take the course for almost 1 and half years! How?! What should I do now?!

Speech-less...

Well, today still the same as last few days, still feel moody... I'm also don't know what happened for myself actually..


WHO CAN TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED ACTUALLY! Some more today still have a feeling that I want to scold someone helps to express out all my moody and unhappy!


Well, until now I still can control my ownself... but it still have to depends on my following day's mood...=.=!!!

P/s --> Hope that there is no one so unlucky within these few days~

心情很不好啊~

最近不懂怎么啦，就是觉得心情超糟糕的...唉，看来我的老毛病又发作了，又开始要胡思乱想了。很烦啊，很烦啊！

话说这两天无论去到哪里都会遇到旧同学，总之都是那些以前小学和中学都同过班的。而且其中一个是我的小学和中学同过班兼是曾经都是好朋友，但有可能是就没见面和联系了吧，昨天见到面先是一个惊讶然而接下来就是互相问候了。就不懂是什么原因，我就是觉得我们彼此的距离越来越远，甚至是有一种陌生感，再也不是以前那种很亲密的和无所不谈的朋友了。

在小学时，我不记得我们是几年级开始就同班了，总之就记得我们在五年级和六年级就已是同班。那时我们都已是无话不谈的朋友了，还记得她曾经给过我她的单人照到目前为止我都还有收着。到上了中学，很庆幸的我们还被安排在同一班，但很可惜的是，由于各自的交友圈子愈来愈广了，我们之间的距离也跟着越来越远了。在随着过几年我们都被分派到不同的班后，不用说我们之间的联系也跟着少了到最后无疾而终。

可能我本来就少接触朋友吧，再加上由于忙着上课和工作，也鲜少出来与旧朋友聚一聚。我的确是在不同地方不停的认识来自不同地方的朋友，但就与旧朋友越来越少联络。说真的，我真得很想念以前与好朋友之间的相处，无奈各自都有自己的目标和有一班与自己志气相投的朋友，有时静下来时，我真得很想念以前与他/她们一起上课、一起玩乐的日子。看来我真的要留些时间出来与朋友聚一聚了，不然我真的会失去很多朋友！

有时候见到面也很少打招呼，不是我假装不认识他们，而是我根本不懂得要怎样开口。每次想到这里，我都会很后悔，因为我知道我又伤害了一位曾经是好朋友的朋友。很对不起，我真的不是有意的...

况且，我没有后悔和忘记与他/她们交朋友！我永远都会记得所结交过的朋友！希望他/她们在不同处也过得快乐~ ^^

Disappoint-ing

Today was the exam for mathematics Paper 4... Guess how was the standard? It's damn difficult I tell you! T.T Even I asking those from the good classes, they also feel disappointed with the paper. ( Yea la, I'm trying to find some reasons to forgive myself..=.=!!!)
I haven't saw and did such kind of questions from past years, this paper is more complicated and harder than before. Haiz~ even now whether I can get pass for the math subject or not for this time is still a main problem...T.T

Hope that that following paper won't come out so harder like math because my brain is going to burst during these few days!!

Haiz~~even those 3 math papers also can't do well, I actually have no more confident for the following papers... What I'm doing now is pray-ing hard and hope I can do well in the following papers~

P/s --> Actually I'm still haven't give up for the following papers la...but just still feel VERY nervous and scary...XP WoRk hArd!!

Math paper~~

Today math paper 3 is damn complicated... Don't know how to describe my feeling now... Just started to feel disappointed since the paper 1 (math)...

Anyway, paper 4 going to start on this Wednesday, ok, I tell you, it's math again... So I really sad and bad mood in these few days... I know I have exposed my 'black face' to my friends and family since I'm not good in mood during these few days, so sorry for that... I know I should not to do so, but I really can't control myself. T.T

Many of them said that I'm too stress in study...Yea, I think so... That is because I really hope that I can do more well in this exam, and don't want to make anyone disappointed same as last time anymore. I so scare, it's very scare, you know? I really scare that I'll repeat the same things again... Plus, I don't hope to waste my parent's money and my time anymore...

Hope that I can do more better than last time... Pray-ing hard~

What Had Happened??!

What had happened to my old blog?! Just don't know suddenly can't open the cuztomize page! And some more those decorations that I have put before all suddenly disappear!

Haiyoyo~~although I have try to do something for MANY times but also can't...T.T Since I can't do anything and finally I'm forcing to give up. Really heartache la you know? I feel want to cry la~~~ I have waste a lot of time before that only can achieved so many posts and decorations...but suddenly ALL DISAPPEAR!

I have try to did it for whole night yesterday but at last also can't make any changes... that's why I give up and delete the whole blog...

Haiya, I have to create it again la!! T-T Haiz...I have no more mood now la~~T^T

Goodbye to my old blog... I'll miss you~~T.T